PTSD After a Traumatic Brain Injury

Hey everyone! I hope you all are having a joyful week. This post however, I want to talk about something that is not so joyful. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).

Take a second. Okay. Breathe. Driving myself around is still a huge hurdle for me. I tend not to drive far, or avoid the area where I was hit. I often feel cars are too close to me and the trauma comes back again. A lot of the times they aren’t even close it is just my mind being taking over by the fear and anxiety of my car accident.

This past weekend I was driving my wife to our nephew’s basketball game. I was so excited despite knowing I would be in a bright gym with florescent lights, loud noises, and surrounded by people I did not know. I played basketball all of my life, and this is a way for me to connect with my nephew. I knew I was going to have anxiety, and I would get a terrible migraine but this was worth it. Well, as we were on the highway this car was trying to change lanes when I was right beside them and they nearly hit me!

Fear, anxiety, stress, my heart beating out of my chest, and feeling hopeless that is what it felt like. PTSD is now something I have to deal with. We finally made it to his game, and I felt like the world was on my shoulders. They won the game, so that did lift my spirits! However, after the game we went out to eat with my sister-in-law’s family. Great, now I have to keep up conversation. My head was killing me, and my anxiety was at its peak. Onward we go.

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I have become good at faking like I am following along, but in reality, I cannot remember the conversation we were having. I was so lost. My brain was fried. I put on a smile, and tried to have a good time.

Anxiety drains the body. My traumatic brain injury and this PTSD wears me out. The following day I did not leave my couch. I had to take a nap in the afternoon, because I could not stay awake and I was still very overwhelmed.

I never really experienced a PTSD episode such as that one before. I have been overwhelmed before, but this fear that I had, how fast my heart was racing, how strong my anxiety was, and how it completely shut my body and brain down was all new.

It was so real. It was as if the accident happened all over again. Has this happened to you? If so I am sorry, I am sorry that out of nowhere you can be crippled as if you are strapped to a hospital bed. What I can say though is that it passed. It took me good 24 hours to get over it, but I did.

I took time to mediate using my CozyPhones I bought off Amazon allowing me to lay down and rest as I listen to my mediation music. I had my essential oils going, and I just took a step back. Sometimes we just have to stop. Stop what we are doing and allow our minds and body to recharge.

I am still learning ways to deal with PTSD in the moment. My new life coach will be helping me out, but as for now I will use my home remedies and figure this thing out.

I just keep telling myself this is a process.

There is hope.

I will be fine.

Thank you for being in my corner.

Until next time – Travis.

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39 comments

  1. Hi Travis,

    Being able to use words to describe what you are experiencing is a step to recovery and healing. I am to dealing with cars driving, or so it seems, too close to me. I constantly tell myself that I am ok. I’m learning daily about my limitations and have come to accept that it is ok to say no. You are a terrific person who has a lot to share with the world. I’m glad to have met you through this electronic medium.
    Sincerely,
    SapphireSeasons
    Adding Salt To Your World

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  2. Travis, I’m sorry for your recent experience. Thank you for sharing the ways that help you cope and relax. May each day be better than the one before and may you continue to listen to your body as it begins and co to yes to heal.

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  3. PTSD is just awful. That was a lot of anxiety-provoking activities to undertake one after the other. You did well Travis to keep it together. Coincidentally, I had a big win in controlling my anxiety yesterday. I’ve got a chronic medical condition so have to go to the docs quite often. I always feel so judged so my blood pressure always goes up when I’m there. It is a bit hard to convince the doc that I don’t need medication for it. I normally visualise sleeping in a hammock on a tropical idea but that hasn’t worked all that well. But yesterday, I went to the doctor just after I had posted my contribution on the WordPress weekly photo challenge. The theme was serene. So I had the image of me just chilling out, with my face in sun waiting for my coffee, firmly in my mind. My goodness that worked a treat. My BP was completely normal! I’m actually looking forward to trying that again. 🙂 I hope you and your life coach find some good techniques that work for you. I think my example shows that just because one thing doesn’t work, or doesn’t work brilliantly, that just a little tweeking could make all the difference.

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  4. So sorry you’re a PTSD sufferer Travis, it’s a really difficult illness to live with, but thanks for sharing. It takes a lot to put yourself out there, but it definitely helps others that are suffering in silence.

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    • Thank you. And thank you for taking time to read it and encourage me! I really appreciate that.

      And that is also one of my main reasons for blogging. To connect with people who might not be ready to share to the world about their problems, but find peace in relating to my post. Have a wonderful weekend!

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  5. I suffer with PTSD so I can empathize. I’m much better but still only sleep in small patches of time. Thankfully the panic attacks are a thing of the past and now it’s only the sleep issues. Thanks for sharing and don’t give up. There is hope for a better tomorrow.

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    • I am sorry you suffer from PTSD as well, but I’m glad that you have been able to get over one of the hurdles! It is very encouraging to see! There is hope, and with a community of people to relate to it makes it so much easier. Thank you for reading. I hope you get some rest this weekend!

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  6. OMGosh, this sums me up on a daily basis. I feel like sometimes there is not enough room in my chest to breathe. I know it is just a symptom, but it is real for me. No one in my life seems to get that about me. Sometimes I wonder, “how am I going to get through this day?” My mom tells me that I have to for my children. Sometimes I think my kids would be better off with a parent that can take care of them. Not a mother that is constantly worrying about EVERYTHING. Thank you for this. Knowing others go through this, too, makes me realize I too can get through it. Again, Thank you for your posts. They inspire me.

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    • You are so welcome, and thank you for sharing a bit. First I want to tell you that your kids are lucky to have you as their mother. They will get to understand mental health and the severeness of it like most kids do not. Also, no one loves them like you do. In moments such as this it is really really really hard, but we will make it. We go through this journey together!!

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  7. Good for you to address this, both in making efforts to face it and deal with it and then to tell others so they can see they’re not alone. I got electrocuted about ten years back and have been dead a couple-few times since, and wow do I get ptsd. We all do our best, and I wish us all the best.

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  8. PTSD isn’t just for Soldiers. I did 25 years in the army and never got shot at so I don’t have combat PTSD. My PTSD, similar to yours, was caused by a high school senior not checking traffic well enough to see my motorcycle. Now I’m terrified of any car pulling up to an intersection from a side street. I also get fried quickly when walking around Wal-Mart, oh and those new electronic soda machines freak me out too. I’m 9 years out and it does get better and that is what I share in my blog. We have to keep going so focus on what is working for you and you may find the good things are better than they were before.

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    • First off, Rodney, thank you for your service. My family truly appreciate you guys.
      And thank you for sharing and your PTSD and anxiety. It so helps being able to relate to people such as yourself that are rather ahead in this journey. Knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel is so encouraging.

      I’ll be sure to follow along! Be sure to subscribe on my new site travisandthebrain.com. Been a little mia but new post coming soon.

      Look forward to going on this journey with you friend!

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    • Thanks Cass! It is truly incredible what the brain can endure and how much it can change a person!

      I’m glad we can relate! Be sure to follow me on my new site travisandthebrain.com so we can go on this journey together! Been a little mia but more post coming soon! Hope you have a restful weekend!

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