Hey everybody! It is that time I talk about my biofeedback sessions. Fifth and sixth. Numbers. Let’s talk about numbers. My last session this past Wednesday, November 29th, 2017, I confronted my clinical psychologist. We are nearing the end of our first round of sessions, and nothing really has improved. I still have all the same mental health problems, I still cannot sleep, and I still have massive migraines.
I expressed to him my concerns. He then goes on to tell me about the 95 percent that have success with his treatments, how all of them are able to sleep better, how all of them got rid of their headaches. OK. I get he is trying to remain positive What about the 5 percent?
This is a tough spot, and my brain wants to go two ways. Let’s have hope. I still have time. I have four sessions to go. Then at the same time my brain says, Travis, let’s face the facts. Nothing has changed. This treatment is not for you. The one thing you have been so hopeful for is not working out.
“I am the one at the sail, the master of my sea”. (Imagine Dragons. Believer)
Numbers. We are more than a number. I am more than a number.
Hope, is something I will not lose. This is what is going to happen. I may lose this biofeedback battle. I may not. What will not happen is my fight for a better me. There are more treatment options. There are more tools I need to learn. The war is not over.
Something I have to realize as well is there is a chance that my brain is stuck in this state. That does not mean I give in to my depression, to my anxiety, to my migraines, and so on. NO. I work. I work every day at learning how to cope better. To be positive. Alternative ways to help my migraines.
Keep moving forward. Isn’t that the theme here? I think that is the important thing to remember. We can become complacent with our situations/circumstances. That is not me. I had my moment with that, but I will not stay in this rabbit hole. My traumatic brain injury does not define me, nor does your circumstances.
So yeah. Very little progress has been made, but at the same time much progress has been made. I am becoming more motivated, more positive, more of the person I want to be.
To those who want to try neurofeedback or biofeedback, go for it. It has great results. The numbers are on your side, but for me this is where I am at with it.
Good vibes sent to you all – Travis